Oh man, I am so that person. You know the contractor with the broken down home?? That might be me. How shall I say this, in a way that receives as little judgement as possible from you all? I’m the lifestyle portrait photographer that forgets to take her own children’s images?? No, no… let’s start like this.
This year I had a goal. I make them occasionally, and sometimes I even meet them. 🙂 I am not very good at taking my own children’s portraits. There are a few reasons for this and at least one includes not being able come up with a good enough bribe to make it a successful experience. But honestly, I think mostly it comes down to just not making the time for it. Yet, I want the images. I do. I saw a picture of my oldest son at the beginning of this year, keep in mind we’re talking less than 6 months ago, and his whole face is different. He looks like such a baby. He looks so much older now. Less than six months ago! I was with him the whole time and I didn’t see it. I didn’t see it because I lived it with him. It’s like you’re too close to see the change happening every day and then it sneaks up on you. All of a sudden you see it.
When you’re parenting through the little years, I think it feels like it will never end, some days. Okay, maybe most days. One of my best friends was watching me correct my youngest son the other day and commented under her breath, “these kids are going to kill us one of these days”. 😀 Amen sister.
But the other side of that is that it’s all going to go so fast. Those little seasons are gone so quickly. I don’t remember when either of my kids stopped needing me to rock them to sleep. I don’t remember when we went from holding hands with my oldest to him walking on his own in parking lots. I don’t remember when we stopped washing their little faces and told them to go wash up. Althought I’m all for the big thing, I love that they’re growing up and learning more and more about life and the excitment of what God will have for them. I don’t want to be the contractor with the broken down home. I want to make the time. I want to have the images forever.
My goal this year was to record them a lot more. To make the time, record the seasons, their little faces. To find just the right bribe to make photographing my own children possible. 😉 I love the movie Cheaper By the Dozen, I think it represents the insanity and amazingness of family life well. One of my favorite quotes is when they are discussing their oldest daughter growing up and trying to lead her own life.
“Five minutes ago, she was sitting on my shoulders
pointing at cows in Munger’s Field.”
“And then you blinked.”
“No more blinking.”
Here’s to no more blinking. The first of my boys’ images from this year. Enjoy.